Almost Gone..

What a strange sensation..to be "here", but really "gone" in my mind already. Everything I do, the thought always comes "Will this be the last time?"I miss my friends and they're a phone call away. NOW. I've been crying for days over getting rid of my cd's I haven't listened to in years, that sweater I wear once a year..I am scared of the future and the big. black. abyss..of IT.