The Sun Room
I've grown quite fond of.. All the light beaming in at ungodly hours of the morn, heating up the place making you feel like you're sun baking in the shade. It can be stifling. But I kinda like its warmth and sanctity from the elements, whilst still giving you the feeling of being "out of doors". Open the windows and breezes flow through with ease. A few raindrops falling make for interesting scenery. And the countless planes that seem to dive-bomb over top of you make you hold your breathe in anticipation til the noise dissipates into the distance. My bags have spread out wide for 2 weeks, and now packed again, for the 264th time. I pack. Wednesday morning I'm off again. To the mountains for 10 days of service and relative silence. On the last leg of this incredible journey. It's only starting to sink in that in another 2 weeks I'll be gone from here. It makes me feel funny in my tummy, that thought. Excited, nervous, full of hopes and possibilities that I can't dare to hang on too tightly to. But I do want to go home. And if Austin is the closest thing I've got to it, just a general direction to go in, I think I'll find it soon enough. I have this problem with missing things that I've never even had. I miss indecipherable things. That don't have names or faces. Just, stuff. That's the best I can describe just one of the many of things I am feeling right now.
I don't wanna go either. Parts of me cringe at the thought of not being near this ocean. So wild, full of commotion and deep, dark waters I long to tread in. There hasn't been near enough swimming. And its nearly done now, my last chances for everything. I love to hate this part. But I vow to enjoy it. Every moment. Cherish them. The friends I've made. The places I've seen. I am feeling really lucky right now. Blessed.
Now, on to the next...
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What you have accomplished is Amazing! How you can express what you are going thru, is also amazing, as I can truly understand on the one hand, you hate to leave this amazing land, but you are homesick for what is familiar and friendly, not to mention the friends and family you have missed. Although we were only there with you for 2 weeks, we can see what you amazingly were able to manage for 9 months. You made so many countless sacrifices, in you comfort to preserve your $. I'm speechless, as to how you managed that, as it can only be accomplished with your amazing ability to connect with the people you meet, the durabilty of your spirt and your amazing ability to make friends. We are so proud of you. It can only make you stronger for the challenges you face as you return to what is familiar. We know you are up to that challenge after what you have experienced in the Land down under. Welcome back to Texas. We love you and are glad you will be coming home soon.
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