One Month from Austin..

23/01/2010

It's been a month now since I left good ol' Austin, the home I love to hate, that I feel I can never escape, but I inevitably miss that place (those people), when I'm far away from anything I know. So far, Melbourne has been rough going. The weather is crazier than Texas, from 50 to 113 in two days, with rain, cold, boiling hot humidity to cool, breezy and sunny-literally, all in one day. It's alot to take in, to try and fit in, among. Factor in jetlag, knowing no one but my dear Katia, who (bless her soul) has been a lifesaver in my darkest moments. Australia on the whole, is nothing like what I imagined or read about before arriving. Granted, I've been here a little over 2 weeks, some of which was spent on the road with Katia and Amanda on our "Fantasmic Fab Roadie to Syd". I don't really know what to make of it all. People aren't as friendly as I imagined they'd be (other than Katia, who I am convinced is my guardian angel on this journey). I've met only a handful of people on my own. I haven't drank NEAR as much as I thought I would (probably a good thing) haven't smoked in a month (also good)..you'd think my mind would be clear, focused. Quite the opposite. Clarity still evades me. I'm having a hard time remembering why I'm here, to be HERE. My mind keeps slipping into the "what should I be doing?" bit, where I only go in circles til I fall down. I DON'T KNOW!!!! That's why I'm here. To sort myself out. Make sense of why I can't stay still, why I'm always looking further than I can see for something better that where I am. What's wrong with where I am? Well, I'm starting to think that it's because I'M there. Ya know? The old saying, that keeps being beat into my head.."wherever you go, there you are." YOU are still there. If I figure out how to escape myself, I'll be sure and blog that one. Until then, I will take solice in the little things that are making me happy right now:
1) I just made the best lentils using garlic, onion, a little "seasoning salt" and fresh tomato as garnish with some white rice..YUM. so hungry. and FREE! (raided roomies food stash)
2) I've got a gorgeous view of the city from this empty apartment.
3) I am blasting my old playlists from 'Around the Town Sounds" and remembering what a bad ass programmer I am as I sit alone at a card table for dinner while everyone else is out for drinks I can't afford
4) This is exactly where I want to be :) believe it or not...